Hello! I haven’t posted anything in awhile because I’ve been working at a summer camp for the past six weeks and a half! It was such an unexpected, but amazing experience!
For me, my summer is looking a lot different than I thought it would. I bet it could be looking a lot different for a lot of y’all as well. I never ever thought I would work at a summer camp, but it has been such a changing experience. I have experienced so much personal growth, I’ve made new friends, and I’ve strengthened my relationship with the Lord. With all this being said, it has truly been an amazing time. There have been ups and downs, as there are in life all the time, but I truly could not imagine spending some of my summer anywhere else!
With that being said, I was essentially disconnected from the world. It was and still is quite challenging to sit down and fully comprehend and digest what is even going on. It was so hard to fully keep up with every single thing that is going on because we get our phones about once a week. Despite not getting our phones as much, we were all aware of what was happening outside our “bubble.” It is so disheartening to see how differently people are treated just because of their skin color, and I am honestly scared for myself and my family. I am glad that more people are becoming more aware of what is happening around them, and they are focused on becoming more educated of the topic of Black Lives Matter. I encourage everyone to keep learning and change for the better.
Being at camp, I had a lot of time to reflect on so many things, and it felt so weird to finally sit down and think about things. Honestly, there was just a big feeling of emptiness. I realized that in the “real world,” I was so focused on so many different things that only give me temporary fulfillment, and now I had most of those things taken away from me.
With that being said, the first few weeks here at camp were a whirlwind. I would constantly focus on the negative aspects of my days. How I didn’t have my phone, how I couldn’t hang out with my friends, how I couldn’t sleep in, etc. It was such a terrible mindset, and it brought me down so much and made it much harder for me to enjoy my time here. It also caused a wall to build up that prevented me from soaking in God’s Word and the messages we would receive. Also, I was faced with personal challenges from home, and I began to think I had made a mistake coming here. After a few days of constant frustration, anger, and sadness, I realized how burnt out I was, and that I couldn’t continue constantly being consumed by these emotions.
So, for the first time since I arrived at camp, I just took a minute to breathe and pray. This was the first time at camp I was asking for the Lord’s help. I came in thinking I could essentially do this all on my own with no trouble, but I quickly found that was not the case. Honestly, this one moment was such an eye-opener for me, and it instantly shifted my camp experience.
I began to carve out time in my day to have quiet time. I started to write down specific highlights of my day to focus more on the positive aspects. I started to fully trust and rely on Him.
I no longer feel that empty feeling I had the first couple of weeks, and it’s been incredible. I am not going to lie, not everyday is all rainbows and butterflies, but that is just life. The way we handle certain situations, and the people we decide to rely on really make a difference. For me, I’ve found relying on God and His Word to be such a game changer.
I just want to share some verses that have been guiding me and strengthening me since I’ve been at camp. Most of these verses talk about how God is always with us, and how He strengthens us.
At the beginning of May, all of summer 2020 was all unknown for me. As a person who hates the unknown, I was absolutely terrified of what this summer was going to bring. So far, it has brought me so many unexpected joys! I hope y’all are also having a summer full of so many joys, whether they be expected or unexpected! If you read all of this, thank you so much :)!